Friday, March 31, 2006
Argghhhh! It's been quite a week for me. Been falling sick too often, with headaches and diarrhoea. And the mother of all illnesses, A PIMPLE! Doesn't sound fantastic when it come from a guy now does it. But it's the truth! Goodness.
But I'm not the only one falling sick. Everyone around me is falling sick. Both figaratively and metaphorically. Certain people [no names going to be mentioned] have fallen, and are still falling, deeply in love. No, not for others, but themselves. They have fallen so deep into the abyss that they are beyond redemption of any sort. It is amazing isn't it? How certain people manage to find so much energy to hate others, yet at the same time, have an infinite amount of love for themselves.
I am definitely sure, that for someone like myself, it is undeniably possible for me to lose EVERY SINGLE ONE of my friends and still continue to live a normal life. However, I have no desire for such a thing to happen, and to ensure that such a misfortune would not befall upon me, I try my best not to step on other people's toes, or tails for that matter.
However, much can be said for this bunch of people. I am positively sure that every single one of them in their clique would never be able to survive on their own. I draw evidence from the fact that every time they fall out of their clique, they seek solace in other friends. Friends that they talk about, behind their backs, friends that they claim they dislike, or in servre cases, hate. Friends that they would only use as "spare tires", and only take them out when their current ''tires'' fail them.
This bunch of people wail and whine about how everyone hates them. I find no fault in that. Even I do that myself, not rarely, but often enough to make my friends tired of my inane comments. They do that too. But the difference is, I don't just wail and whine, I try my best to salvage the situation. They on the other hand, just continue to dish out hate from their endless pool, and inflict it upon whatever friends they have left. And at the same time, find that extra energy to draw love, from an endless supply as well, to love themselves. This obviously, does nothing to save them from the predicament they are in.
Then there's the problem of them basking in their own adulation. Not for a minute, not for an hour, but 24/7. They think they are so high and mighty, and everyone, EVERYONE, is inferior to them, and no matter what the circumstance, they would alwasy be better. But this is the truth. THEY. ARE. NOT. And I say this to them. YOU. ARE. ALL. NOT. Know your place and your standing. Don't push it. One fine day, someone is going to lose it and tell you straight in your faces. YOU. ARE. ALL. NOT. WHO. YOU. THINK. YOU ARE.
But they would never, NEVER, feel hurt, for they think too highly of themselves, and they are too sick of self-love.
7:45 pm