Saturday, October 13, 2007
Badminton And A Whole Lot Of Thoughts
I went to Jo's place today for badminton. As strange as that sounds. Well, Salvin, Benjamin, Wyncy, Emmanuel went as well though Alyssa was supposed to join us as well but she had to go meet her other half. I'm pretty happy that I've the chance t get to know them better, as cheesy as that sounds but they're really fun people to hang around with. And besides, chances are, I'll be in the same class as them some day.
It's times like this that makes me grateful I didn't skip CampRad. If I did, I wouldn't have met Jo or Lina, which obviously means I wouldn't get to know any of Jo's classmates, or ex-classmates rather. You gain some, you lose some I suppose. And unless you're close to me, which you probably are cause this blog is pretty much close to unknown and unvisited, you probably won't know what that means.
Anyway. Since no one in Poly has ever seen me doing sports of any kind, I think it came to Jo as a mild surprise that I could actually hold myself in badminton quite well. So they said. My reply was that just because I don't like sports doesn't mean I can't do it. Wyncy and Jo both agreed that I should do sports more often.
So what's the point?
The point is, I felt happy when they said that. Nobody, as far as I can remember, has ever "encouraged" me as such.
It's a bit late for me to say this but back when I was in Kuantan, there were games going on and well, I never really got to play much. Not play-play per se, more like no-one-passes-the-damned-ball-to-me play. The thing was, if I didn't go and fight for the ball, no one would have passed the ball to me unless they had no other choice. Then it kinda hit me that you write your own story. Because I was never the sporty kind of person, I avoided sport of any kind by providing excuses like how I'm not good at any sport and the whole nine yards. I suppose it grew on people and they assumed that I suck at sports so they'd rather not count on me when I'm involved in a game.
Then the whole thing just makes it worse cause I don't enjoy the game which leads to me further rejecting my participation in sports. And then it just dwindles down to "Sherwin sucks at sports, like totally."
I'm not blaming anyone. It's my own fault. I wrote my own life and now I have to live it.
Then Wyncy and Jo come along says something like that and it just makes me feel well, happy. And I felt like I actually enjoyed the game. Which is rare, VERY rare.
I know it doesn't really make sense but to me it does. I realize I'm not very good at putting my thoughts down in words but it's okay, cause it's my blog and as said before, no one really reads it anyway.
I want more friends like them. Even though it was, officially, only the second time I hung around with them, I felt like I had been friends with them for the longest of time. So maybe that's exaggeration but you get the gist.
Sigh.
I'll be off now. My butt and right arm hurts. Wonder why. Oh right, that's cause I haven't done any exercise in ages.
Thanks guys.
12:39 am