Friday, December 14, 2007
Jon, Vinson, Daniel and I went caroling at MountElizabeth today. We were part of a line up of acts that was supposed to be for the staff and patients of Ward 12 though using the words "line up" would pretty much be a mistake cause there clearly wasn't any slight semblance of planning.
Though I can't say it's a bad thing exactly. I mean, it's not like it's a party for the Queen or something and it being the holidays and all, I suppose a relatively relaxed and spontaneous environment would go well.
Then again, maybe not.
Anyhow, despite everything , I think we did okay if I may say so myself.
I love singing. And caroling. Though I can't say I do any of them well. I've never really looked forward to much except for caroling. Don't know why either. Okay, maybe not just caroling, but at the moment, that's what it is.
I've been wasting my life away watching YouTube, playing my DS, lazing around, basically everything except anything constructive. And I wonder why I even bother anymore. Life is just so
Person: "Hey!"
Me: "Yah."
Person: "How's things?"
Me: "
Liddat lorh."
Person: "Oh. So.....What have you been up to?"
Me: "Nothing."
Person: "Ah. Okay..."
*Enter Sir Awkward Silence*
Person: "Okay. I've got to go."
Me: "Yah. Bye."
Person: "...."
I conclude that I cannot engage in proper conversations with people. They always just die. So pardon me if I appear uninterested but I'm actually not. It's just that my EQ seems to be in the negative regions and I just can't seem to carry a decent conversation and maybe because of that, no one wants to talk to me and I don't feel like talking to anyone anymore.
But listening. Ahh, that's something I think I do quite well if I may say so myself.
I used to think I had high EQ but now I know otherwise. I'm actually socially awkward and seeing how I'm becoming more and more stupid by the day, I'll be as unique and interesting as a pot of boiling water and after that I'll just evaporate and disappear.
I wonder what I'm doing with my life.
How all that came out, I have no idea.
Speaking of singing songs, I'll pay a million bucks I do not have, for the hand in marriage of ANY of the CelticWoman.
Alas, it is evident I have lost my marbles as well.
In other news, my hives have come back again.
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Sing a song of twenty cents
My pocket's full of lies
Four and twenty hours
Spent wasting 'way my life
11:55 pm